stop pretending

When all you do is PRETENDING to be someone you're NOT!!!

When i truly look,
deeper into your soul,
i finally know,
that you're only PRETENDING.

And yet still i PRETEND,
i PRETEND that everything is great,
i PRETEND that i am doing good,
i PRETEND that i am having fun,
i PRETEND that i am happy,

And yet i still PRETEND,
i PRETEND that i am normal,
i PRETEND to have that smile,
i PRETEND i am fine,
i PRETEND i know everything,

And yet still i PRETEND,
i PRETEND i am not crying,
i PRETEND i am not lonely,
i PRETEND i am not scared,
i PRETEND i am brave,

And yet still u PRETEND,
you PRETEND that u care about me,
you PRETEND that u have feelings for me,
you PRETEND to know the answer,
you PRETEND to be someone special,

And yet still u PRETEND
you PRETEND i hurt myself,
you PRETEND i cut myself,
you PRETEND i burnt myself,
you PRETEND to be everything that u wished to be,

And yet still i PRETEND,
i PRETEND like how you taught me to PRETEND,
i PRETEND as what you did,
i PRETEND that u have a HEART,
i PRETEND and tell myself you’re not punishing me

And yet still i PRETEND,
i PRETEND, that i love to use the word "PRETEND"
i PRETEND that I’m not weeping,
i PRETEND that I’m not hurting,
i PRETEND that u didn't see me that day

And yet still you PRETEND,
you PRETEND to be close to me,
you PRETEND to show concern,
you PRETEND to be sweet before this thing happened,
you PRETEND to have fallen for me,

And yet i still PRETEND,
i PRETEND it never happened,
i PRETEND to myself,
i PRETEND to my friends,
i PRETEND to my family especially her,

I’m still PRETENDING,
i PRETEND not to say anything,
i PRETEND not to confess,
i PRETEND to keep quiet,
i PRETEND to know that you’re busy when actually you’ve been trying to avoid me!!!!